Wally's was exactly what I needed tonight. A little hole in the wall, with 365-days-a-year live music (Monday is blues night, according to the website). The place has been around since 1947, and it's oozing character, by barely trying. Low ceilings, minimal decor, mostly awards, photos, and some low-key art, but a great crowd, mix of old and young, everyone clapping, swaying, singing. An unfancy bouncer, bar, and bartender--all I drank was Red Stripe, but the chalkboards boasted drinks, wine, and whiskey, too--and above all, great music. Tonight, the set allowed for multiple boozy singalongs, and the music on between sets was the right fit too. Mike and I got kept captive by some crazy drunk woman telling us about her mom's multiple bypass surgeries, and it was all we could do to keep from busting out in ridiculous laughter. Cue more Red Stripe. The night ended, at least for us, with some James Brown (get on up...) and a clove and giggle filled walk home, as we let out the compressed hysteria at gastric-bypass-woman. Tomorrow's my day off, and this was a good way to ease on into a day off full of everything I can't fit into my day's on. Sing myself to sleep with a little James Brown...

im sick of being angry or manic just because im afraid to admit im hurt or slow down.

on the up side, my classes actually all strangely fit together.
keeping in touch with people helps me feel more whole
im learning to be ok with change and growing up
my hair is getting really long
breezy fall days are here!!
i miss parts of the 'burgh
trying to let more in
need to stretch
and sleep.

a bottle of wine later (is that when we're all really honest?)

a smidge overwhelmed
but we all know how i love the manic
wishing i didnt feel so down regarding the/a boy
optimistic about my classes
ambivalent about plenty of things
missing some people and family at home
wishing i felt less all over the place
glad i have my independence
a little sad that no relationship has a major pull on my time
needing more sunshine in my life
ready for some real life responsibility
in need of a goal/purpose beyond the immediate future
absolutely craving affection/sex/anything in that category
proud and embarrassed that i let myself open up a little
wanting to both move on and never let go
not quite ready to grow up. or am i.
feeling a little too observatory/girl in a fishbowl at times
how connected are we all, really? or all we are just moving around and past each other?

So true.

Can we all agree on this?

In other news, Google Calendar runs my life.